Ok, this is a quick , very quick, post to say I am still here (if anyone is still out there).
I have been very busy in the last week getting caught back up on life in general...but I have also been very busy helping out our troop leader with some of the stuff Beth used to do for her (which, let me tell you, was a LOT).
It feels so good to be able to help, but of course, it means having to give up some of my other favorite things.
For now, I feel called to help our troop and Beth's family in whatever way I can. I will still check in and update about the kids and our life from time to time, but I definitely don't think daily posting is in my near future.
I hope to be able to check a few blogs and comment from time to time, too. I know, it has been a while since I commented on or visited my favorite blogs, but I hope to start again soon.
Miss you guys, but, I shall return...eventually!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Ok, this is a quick , very quick, post to say I am still here (if anyone is still out there).
Sunday, March 28, 2010
So, last week was the first time I missed GTKY since I started playing along.
I truly love this meme...I love getting to know everyone else and I love to know that people are actually getting to know things about me. However, with the loss of my best friend last week, it was impossible for me to play along.
Well, there is nothing better than having Ian ask our GTKY questions to get me back in the groove...so, a BIG thanks to Keely and Ian for bringing me back to Bloggy-Life!
Ok, so, if you want to play along, and I suggest that you do, head on over to Keely's blog to play along!
3 - Why are you always concerned with losing that "extra 10 pounds" when chances are your husband/boyfriend/friends tell you that you look just fine the way you are?
6 - What was the best year of your life and why?
Friday, March 26, 2010
First things first...My friend's daughter's surgery went "very well" according to her surgeons. I am going to go up to see her once she is awake and her dad says I can go with him (he has to be with me to see her). Praises are definitely in order....but, prayers are definitely still appreciated for both her continued physical and emotional healing.
I have also been by to see the other child, who is now home. She is doing well, but in a lot of pain. Please also be prayerful for her continued physical and emotional healing. I took her some Reece's Pieces and Yoo-Hoo (at her request) and also a cute little handheld chick that chirps when you touch it. Bless her little heart, she is such a brave girl.
As for me, I had my first attempt at grocery shopping since the accident. I went to our local Food Lion in town...a place Beth and I frequented regularly...sometimes together intentionally and sometime by coincidence. I was about half way through the store when it hit me, I won't ever 'run into her' at Food Lion again....of course, I felt myself starting to cry...I felt alone, totally alone in the middle of this grocery store filled with people. Then, as I turned the corner, there stood my neighbor (who is like my adoptive grandma)...and I just ran up to her and wrapped my arms around her and started bawling.
In that moment, I was so sad, but so joyous. I believe it was God's way of saying, "You may think you are alone, my child, but I am making sure you are never alone in this journey." I was humbled...My neighbor just hugged me and started asking me about Beth' daughter. I quickly composed myself to share the good news of her successful surgery.
Every moment is different..each second has it's highs, and lows. However, it is impossible to ignore God's Hand through all of this...because, even through all this sadness, I have felt Him here with me every moment!
P.S. If you are interested, you can read about the vigil we held for Beth here...it is an inspirational read, and something I was so honored to do for both the girls in our troop and our entire community, but especially for Beth.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
..as in my handwriting.
I think mine is the worst. I have always wanted to write like a 'girl.' I always wanted to have that nice, bubbly, perfect-letters-every-time style of handwriting. Instead, I have the handwriting skills of about a 7-year-old.
However, I got tagged to do something I find interesting over on my dear friend Robin's blog. The assignment was this:
Your Handwriting Says You Are Somewhat Traditional
|You are sometimes a very energetic person, but you are sometimes quite lethargic. You're moody, prone to ups and downs, and you don't have a lot of endurance.|
You are reserved and not very outgoing. You are deeply thoughtful and introspective. You have a lot of control over your actions and emotions.
You are extravagant, over the top, and indulgent. You set trends and influence people.
You don't need a lot of space, and you prefer to spend time with others. You are a little nosy and intrusive. You sometimes don't give people enough space.
You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.
You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.
Does this sound like me? I mean, you know, other than the fact that I am not outgoing...I have always felt very outgoing.
Thanks again everyone for all your support, prayers and comments. Today is going to be hard as we say good bye to a dear friend, but I am certain we will be just fine as I know she is up there watching over us sitting right next to the Bug Guy!!!!
Please still be prayerful for her daughter as she undergoes an 8 hour surgery today.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Two people very special to me sent me this...I have never met them in person, but I feel like they are just as special as if we had know each other all our lives...Thank you friends!!!! I love you guys and am so happy God put you in my life...I hope we get to create many wonderful memories together in the years ahead.
I heard this morning that the girl who was in the accident with my best friend and her daughter will get to come home today. I am going to take them dinner tonight. Praise God!!!
Beth's daughter will have an 8 hour surgery tomorrow, during her mom's funeral. She is still sedated and hasn't been told yet of her mother's passing. Please, please be prayerful for this sweet girl and her family. They need all the prayers and love we can offer them.
Monday we had our vigil for Beth...I prepared the slideshow, made ribbons and even got to speak on our troops behalf about our beloved friend. I don't know how I did it, it was so hard, but I know I did my best and I was so honored to be able to speak about my friend.
After the vigil, another mom and I were approached by two women from our Girl Scout Council BOD (Board of Directors). Before Beth died, she had been working on a trip we were taking to the birth place of the GS founder, Juliette Lowe, in Savannah GA...well, we decided, as a troop, to honor Beth, we will still be going to Savannah...well, these two women said they want to help us get there...they are going to request funding from the Council for our trip...Isn't that amazing? What a blessing!!!
Each day is getting better. Each moment is still different. There are true blessings during this storm...true friends...true family...life is so truly precious!
My friend had this saying stenciled on her wall in her kitchen: Live, Laugh, Love!!!! I am going to choose to live by her motto. I can't think of a better way to even further honor my friend.
There is much to be done for this family over the span of life, but I am thanking God that he chose me to be here for this amazing family. I am thanking Him for trusting me with her love, her friendship and her family. I will do my best to give back to them all the love she gave to me. I am so grateful to have had someone like her as long as I did....I bet many people go a lifetime without having someone as special as her in their life.
So, Live, Laugh and Love...every day!!!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
I remember the first time I met you...almost 5 years ago right after we moved here, to Caroline County, VA...I walked into my first Girl Scouts Meeting and you were there. You were so together...so attentive to what you were doing...so organized and energized. However, you quickly approached us and welcomed my daughter and I to the troop.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
While I was writing a comment on the Bloggette of the Week over at SIF's BF forum I got a phone call from our Girl Scout Troop Leader.
I am on my way to the hospital, but will update this post later with more details.
Hallowed be thy Name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom,
and the power, and the glory,
for ever and ever.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Achievements are such wonderful things, aren't they?
I couldn't decide between making this a serious post and a sarcastic one...so, I decided to do a little of both.
Now, below I am going to list things I have recently been shameful for...
- My new indulgence in Facebook...or rather Farmville since that's all I really do while on Facebook. Yes, since I created my account last weekend, I now have chickens, cows, horses, goats, sheep, pigs and even cats...not to mention I just bought two tractors this morning.
- My negligence to clip Eva toenails for God knows how long....they were pretty darn long...about an 1/8th of an inch!!! She does have GREAT nails though.
- My kitchen floor...it is a little sticky. The other day, Jr figured out how to turn juice boxes upside down to make the juice flow out...now, he is intrigued with Capri Sun water falls.
- Vic's recent treatment of her sister...she pulled Eva off of our stone fireplace and made her hit her head on the floor...then, to make Eva feel better, we let her sleep with us last night. Joe was apparently watching CSI (on FX) when he went to sleep and left the tv on...only for me to wake up in the middle of the night to see a "Girls Gone Wild" commercial on...yes, while Eva was in our bed, fortunately asleep! (I swear if anyone from BF is reading this, you know this was your fault!)...
- My recent behavior on the BF forum...I lashed out when someone 'said' something I took too personally. I know better than that...I was wrong...I was a disgrace to myself, even though others might not agree...and I lost all control. I didn't curse, but I certainly threw a few stones back at people....something I try my hardest not to do.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Indeed, I do have a bit of Irish in me, just enough to celebrate, but not enough to have any real 'luck.'
However, I do feel like the luckiest girl alive after last night's new episode of LOST. I mean, wasn't it just awesome? And, you know what time it is...Time for LOSTapalooza! Our time to sit back reflect and try to guess what is going on. This fun fest is hosted by Robin...head on over to her place to join in on the fun!!!
Oh, and one final thing before I move on to my post, I just have to quote my favorite LOST line of all time, and it is from last night's episode: "Well, Kate, no one's perfect." I mean, you can't get better than that, can you?
Sawyer...Sawyer....I don't know what to think...I mean, you're a cop?!?!?!? I won't go into too much on this, but aren't detectives con mans in their own way? So, I mean, even though he is a cop, he is still a con man! Some things never change....but, I was a little shocked and really didn't see it coming.
I am sorry, but Smokey aka Locke is manipulative (Robin, we will have to agree to disagree on this one)...and, did you see him slap the sh*t out of Claire? Really, it is his fault she is crazy...he is the one who manipulated her to begin with...I know, yes, he admitted that, but still, he hit her pretty darn hard!
Kate, I still <3 you! You still rock!!!
Oh, and so I know we are a little confused about who the 6 candidates are...well, I think one of them may be Ben Linus or Charles Whidmore...so, it's Sawyer, Sayid, Kwon (sun or Jin or both), Hurley, Jack and either Ben or Charles...unless, Locke, as Smokey, is still one of them...but, I don't think so.
Oh, and my last note before I get into the questions...I really think, in the flash sideways, they KNOW!!! Yes, I think they know what is going on...I think when they left the island, they got flashed to the different universe back to the time of 815...however, I think there is some or all of the residual memory from the last 3 years...I don't think they are ignorant to what is going on...Basically, they get off the island, they know they will be in a different world, and they remember each other, but are aware the world, and that their roles in it, have changed.
I guess we'll have to wait and see, won't we?
Ok, here are this weeks questions:
Um, duh, I wish it could be Kate, but since it can't be, I will have to say Jack...I guess...I mean, I am kind of going with my gut here...I don't think there will be a new Jacob...I think the island is going to end up under water...like we saw at the beginning of this episode.
And, there you have it folks! Head on over to Robin's Blog to grab the questions and link up!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
So, this is kind of an update and then a dual thanks!
My van is in the shop...I spent most of yesterday running around trying to get it dropped off, and then back home again...$1200 worth of repairs and it should be ready for pick up later today. I will say, even the mechanic was impressed that I have 200K miles on my van and almost ALL original parts still on it....not too bad, is it? I must say, I definitely got my $$'s worth out of my 2005 Dodge Grand Caravan...and she's still tickin'!
On to the true meaning of this post...
I kind of stole an award and promised to accept it from Taiya's Blog (well, she was telling people to take it, so is that really stealing?)...then, Sam, almost a week later, gave me this award (no, I didn't steal this one...she gave it to me).
Thanks Ladies...I think both of you ROCK!!!!
- I love waking up in the morning, getting the girls up and laying in the bed with Jr while he has a bottle...that is about the only time of the day that he is so loving.
- I love the smell and taste of coffee in the morning (well, I like the taste as long as it has cream and sugar added)
- I love my new N-IRL (Not In Real Life) friends.
- I love rainy days.
- I love the sounds of birds chirping.
- I love Tuesdays (yes today) because a new episode of LOST is coming on.
- I love that I have a wonderful family that I know is here for me any day I need them to be, and I enjoy being able to be there for them, too.
- I love my job and that I can work from home.
- I love right now! Today! This moment! For in this moment, I exist!
- I love God...for through Him all these blessings are possible in my life!
- Robin @ Lolidots
- Ian @ The Daily Dose of Reality
- Elizabeth @ King J's Queen
- Nikki @ Life as we know it
- Shannon @ I make all this up
- SIF @ SIF
- Laura @ Blogging from Bolivia
Sunday, March 14, 2010
It's Sunday! That means it's time for another round of Getting to Know You!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
I don't know why, but each Friday morning, when I drive in to the BIG city (Washington DC) I always seem to have reflection time. This time is what I deem to be time spent talking and listening to God and trying to let Him work through me and guide me in my life (I know, I don't usually 'talk' about this type of stuff because it really is hard to put my spirituality into words).
Yesterday, I was flipping stations on the radio trying to find a traffic update, as it wasn't time for WTOP's traffic on the 8's. Well, somehow, I landed on a religious station where a pastor was giving a sermon. Now, I can't recall a time in my life, prior to yesterday, where I actually stopped and listened to a 'radio' sermon (I don't know, but for some reason, I just can't get into them). For some reason, yesterday I did....and I ended up in tears of joy (no shocker there, huh?...I know I cry at everything)...
Anyhow, the pastor was talking about how loving God is...and how a little selfish God is in that He wants us to have alone time with Him....not praying, not reading your Bible, but just listening to Him and letting Him move in your heart.
These moments, are what this pastor called solitude.
Now, I don't know about you, but when I hear the word solitude, I think of people in jail who have been in trouble and are now isolated in a cell on their own. However, after hearing this sermon, I wanted to see what the actual definition of solitude was...this is what I found on wiki:
Solitude is a state of seclusion or isolation; i.e., lack of contact with people. It may stem from bad relationships, deliberate choice, infectious disease, mental disorders, or circumstances of employment or situation (see castaway).
The definition seems rather dark, doesn't it? Not something you would want as a daily part of your life, is it?
Now, if you don't know this already, there have been many times in my life where I felt alone....utterly alone. Isolation in a jail cell would have almost been welcoming as opposed to what I was going through. However, at a very young age, I learned to let God in my heart...to let Him work his wonders inside of me. Those alone times quickly became 'not alone' times as God was there...with me, holding me, guiding me, loving me as any wonderful Father would His child.
I remember the first time I read Footprints. I was in a friend's house and it was on their bathroom wall. When I read that, it made so much sense to me...like a lightbulb went off that said, "See, God was carrying you...just like you thought He was!"
It was when I heard this sermon yesterday, and heard the new meaning of this word, Solitude, that that same lightbulb went off in my head. That is what I have done my entire life...it isn't praying, it isn't reading the Bible and processing the words in it as you interpret them...it is allowing God to move through you, by letting Him in your heart, and in a sense listening to His guidance and direction by opening yourself up to His will and seeing the good in everything in your life, even if it doesn't seem 'good' to you at the time.
I now have a new word that I may use quite often...and as negative as it may sound, I look forward to my daily times of solitude.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Yup, today is Friday, which means I just got home from a looong (but wonderful) day away at the office.
Since I didn't get around to doing a post today, I figured I would be a slacker and just post the same post I wrote for my guest spot on Ian's Blog yesterday...you know, just in case you missed it.
So, here is my guest post...
I am sure most of you have birth stories of your own you like to tell…most of which are probably stories of how your own children were born.
Me, I like to tell me own birth story (narcissistic any?)…it is a story that contains deep ties to a life long commitment of trust, loyalty, and undying love.
Here it is…in a very big nutshell…
It was September 1979…my mother was 2 weeks over due with her second child, me.
Miserable, hugely overweight, swollen, and, more than likely in her worst mood ever, my mother decided, being the avid ‘Skins fan she is, to spend her Sunday afternoon watching the Redskins first season game versus the Houston Oilers.
Obviously, I don’t recall exactly how the game went (after all, I wasn’t even born yet), but I know the Redskins were leading by a point or two in the last few minutes of the game….apparently, Houston scored a last minute field goal to take the lead.
In that moment, my mother jumped up out of anger and disappointment. When she hit the ground on her way back down her water broke…I was born the next day, following the Redskins first loss of the season.
Now, without going into too much detail, let’s just say my mother isn’t the ‘most pleasant person’ to be around…So, along with a lifetime of traditions, there is one thing Redskin’s losses have done for me…I credit this particular ‘Skins loss with getting me ‘the hell up out my mamma!” So, I don’t mind them losing…consistently…or, that they haven’t led their division since my first child was born, in 1999. That’s all OK…and I still consider myself a true fan.
With that, you have the realest, most genuine reasoning behind being a true, die hard Redskins fan…win or lose (preferably lose)!
Until tomorrow...for now, to bed! ;)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Today, I am going partially 'post-less.'
Not really, as I have written a post...a good one...maybe one you will enjoy...but, alas...
To read it, head on over to Ian's Blog Daily Doses of Reality...he has an AWESOME blog and is an awesome guy, by the way, so you WILL find more you like while you are there!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Happy Wednesday Everyone!
I don't think you need an explanation about what this meme is about, do you? If so, head over to Robin's Blog to get instructions, grab the questions and link up with us for our weekly LOSTapalooza!
Last night I got another fix of LOST...and it was such a GOOD fix!
Ok, so watching the rerun of last weeks episode, I am pretty sure at the bottom of the screen they said Dogan was worried about killing Sayid and that he would 'tip' his own scale from good to bad. Which, to me, means Jacob's side is indeed good, right? Unless, the comments shown at the bottom of the old episodes isn't LOST truth....I am thinking it is though.
Also, Richard is so Black Rock guy...I knew it all along! Does this mean he was slave OR a slave runner? I can't think he would have been chosen for 'the good' side unless he was a slave...I mean, slave runners don't exactly seem like good people, do they?
I <3 BEN!!! I mean, don't laugh at me, but I was crying at parts of his scenes with Alex...to choose a child, even if it is not your own blood, over yourself is such a selfless act. I am almost crying thinking about it (yes, I am a Sensitive Sally)...It was so good to see him choose good at the end...I do <3 you, Ben!...although, I am not quite sure why they had you referencing Napoleon...perhaps comparing your short stature and need for power to him...I like you MUCH better than Napoleon. I don't think you suffer from a Napoleon Complex!
Let me just say, is this not the 2nd week in a row without Sawyer?...or Jin? WTF? Hello! I bet they are already on Hydra! I guess we'll see next week.
I guess we really don't know which Kwon it is...Sun...Jin...or BOTH! See, I think it is them both. That way, there would be 7 candidates all together and would create a tilt of the scale depending on who went to which side. Oh, and did ya'll see the comment on the bottom of last's weeks episode saying Kate WAS with Locke!!!! Ughhhhhhh!!!!
Ok, enough of my babbling...which is all it really is...with all this information, I don't feel the need to speculate further...so, on with the questions:
1. (Courtesy of Sam) - The lines have been drawn. Whose side are you on? Jacob or Fake Locke? Which way would you go?
Good question! ;) I am so on 'Team Jacob'...after seeing Ben's selfless change in heart and after seeing Sayid go nutso, I will stick with the side which seems obviously good. I guess we now know why Dogan and friends wanted Sayid dead...they KNEW what he would do. Plus, I think LOST people have confirmed which side is good...Bye Kate...I'm gonna miss you!
2. Do you think that the other "powers" we've seen have anything to do with the island?
I do, absolutely, however, they appear to work 'off island,' too...I so think the abilities are acquired 'on island.'
3. Who was Jacob talking about when he told Hurley that he needed to help someone get back to the island at the lighthouse?
Uhhhhh, I guess Whidmore! I mean, or pehaps it was his intent to have Jack destroy the mirror so Whidmore couldn't find it...ok, I don't think Whidmore is good, do you? Maybe it is because of how he treated Penny and Desmond, but he seems like a big piece of crap obsessed with power and the island.
4. Take a stand. Fake Locke- good side or bad side?
BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Final answer! I hope I'm not wrong! I would feel like such a dummy!
So, if you are feeling a need to futher your LOST fix from last night, head over to Robin's Blog to participate in LOSTapalooza!
Happy Wednesday Everyone!